Rieccomi qui. Oggi sono iperfelice, un 30 ad anatomia patologica era quello che mi serviva dopo questi mesi di duro studio. Non è un 30 come gli altri perché l’anatomia patologica è uno di quegli esami che possono non farti graduate in medicine never seen the 2,000 pages of the book and the difficulty of its content. In any case, everything went just fine and I'm happy. I'm still a bit 'dazed and his head he would not do anything for the tiredness, but the desire to write is so much that I did not give.
In the previous post I spoke of my desire to leave, move away to start my life ... well, while I still dream and plan my future, but who is his dream is about to make it happen. I'm talking about S. and his imminent departure for Afghanistan., four months (but could also double!) where it will be nearly 5,000 miles from me. You can imagine how I feel. I live with the fear that that day really comes, when I am forced to hug him one last time and hope to be able to still make his return.
The first time I spoke of this desire was around October 2009, we were in my car on a Sunday afternoon and I was on the moon as always, whenever I holds in his arms. S. had just returned from a holiday in Las Vegas and I exercise a cuddle and the other between the pilfered information about his American experience, to satisfy my curiosity unbridgeable. If there's one thing to my baby experience with men I've learned is that you must learn how to listen. Because when there is no dialogue and a man has no desire to tell to a woman, that is the end of a relationship. I have been able to listen and continue to do so and I never stop to do it with none of the men that I have at my side. That afternoon I listened S. and saw in his eyes and his way of expressing the same desire and the same desire that is just a child when craving a toy that he was not given yet. I saw in him the desire to leave, to bring his expertise in a country full of difficulties, bringing into play his own life. After almost a year e mezzo in cui non ha mai smesso di credere in questo obiettivo, S. a breve avrà il suo giocattolo, sebbene non si possa parlare di giocattolo in questo caso. La mia prima reazione a quelle sue parole fu il panico più totale, panico e paura, paura per una missione, quella in Afghanistan, che continua a fare migliaia di morti tra i nostri soldati. E non è un caso se sono qui a parlarne proprio oggi che l’Italia piange un altro militare,un altro uomo che ha creduto nella sua patria e per essa ha perso la sua stessa vita. Mi arrabbio quando ci ricordiamo dei militari e di quello che fanno solo quando muoiono, siamo così indifferenti a quello che ci succede intorno che non apprezziamo il lavoro di donne e uomini lontani dalla loro terra se non quando We have put their own skin. At first glance the desire to S. was a concern for me, I do not know why but I saw all black and I thought that the S. I was talking about was not the man I had known but a fool who went without a valid reason to risk his life. It's been a while since that day when for the first time we talked and after that talk there were many others in which I realized that my fears were also his, but that his desire was so strong as to overcome fear itself. Each day throughout this time S. has done nothing to earn his departure, and now that day has almost the same fears re-emerged in both, perhaps even stronger than I am today, one that has captured the sense of this mission and the meaning it has for him day after day and never stop to give him strength and courage. Today I believe that this will be for him a great life experience from which to learn and grow and some months will not be easy for me but especially for him, will not be easy month for us that we are used to tell us anything happens to us, however, will overcome this. I have confidence in him and what he does and I believe in the promise he showed me that whatever happens will be his health first. And I will follow and support this choice, as I have always done, because to love means too, share and understand the other's needs, and I will miss her smile a lot, what made me fall in love and already beginning daydream the day that I shall hold on his arrival back to me. 
